Enjoy the ride

My mom sent me a card this morning

 and she had written

 "enjoy the ride, not the walk". 

It made me smile. 

Mentally resetting my mind

 every day is getting to be a habit, 

and I think with these little people around me,

 it helps to put things into perspective.

Enjoying the ride,

 still not easy for me

 as I want to constantly delegate

 and stretch what little

independence

 I have right now.

 This too shall pass

 and I need to digest

 all of the quiet moments that I have.

 There are a lot of quiet moments,

 a lot of times,

 more than I would like.

 I love the noise of children,

 the harsh, repetitive bangs of toy,

 the clopping of Eden in kitten heels,

 and even the irritated yells of Eden or Micah

 as one is bothering the other.

 When I don't hear it,

 I miss it,

 and I long for those noises to fill my ears.

Enjoying the ride

 has also meant letting go.

 Trusting my kids to learn

 to make decisions for themselves

 and to not interfere with every little move.

 Letting them be kids and having fun doing it,

 I guess is what I'm trying to describe.

 At times,

 I'm like a hovercraft over them,

 guiding them and in my perspective helping, but I'm not.

 It's funny how just sitting 

in a chair in the sun

 has made me admire

 Micah's chubby cheeks more

 or the way that his hair curls in the humidity.

 It's like I'm learning

 my children from a different perspective.

 From a distance,

 as in a calm (unable to meddle) mom,

 but so close that I see it all

 and can laugh and cry

 with them every step of the way.

 So again, today,

 I reset my mind

 and focus on enjoying the ride.

 It's calm right now

 and so easy when I think

 about the expectations that are upon me,

 they're nothing.

 This is beauty though,

 and I just need to wallow in it.